Well of course this is what little girls do! So I should have been prepared ....but I guess I just didn't expect it...don't know why ...guess because I didn't play with them much. But ohhhh my how this melts my heart. I wish I could freeze her right now....but im guessing every stage has its reasons you would love to halt their growing up right there.....and then reasons why you can't wait to move on. But for tonight....im so content with this stage I could eat her alive. She brings me so much peace. I can see why the lord commanded us to be like them.
Monday, October 10, 2011
Sweet little budding mommy
Well of course this is what little girls do! So I should have been prepared ....but I guess I just didn't expect it...don't know why ...guess because I didn't play with them much. But ohhhh my how this melts my heart. I wish I could freeze her right now....but im guessing every stage has its reasons you would love to halt their growing up right there.....and then reasons why you can't wait to move on. But for tonight....im so content with this stage I could eat her alive. She brings me so much peace. I can see why the lord commanded us to be like them.
Sunday, May 8, 2011
mommys day
Well mommys day has come to a close and the two little monkeys who give this day any meaning to me are sleeping cozy and adorable in their beds, with no idea the imprint they leave on my heart everyday. tomorrow will come and if history has taught me anything ill go to bed tomorrow night not realizing i could possibly have found them even more cute and go to bed loving them even more. thank you livy and noah, for bringing joy to me in its most pure form.
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Monday, May 2, 2011
A Charmed Life
We all know life goes by fast. It seems like childhood goes by especially fast and suddenly we are graduating and moving onward. It felt to me like i spent the better part of that childhood and teenage life looking forward to being a mother. I watch my 10 year old niece glow and drool over babies, and at the same time remember massaging my sisters belly when she was 8 months pregnant with her.
I thought i would feel....different, I guess. More mature inside maybe? More "adult" the way I saw the young mothers and "adults" when I was 12. But I'm just me! Im just the same me inside, sitting at my sons baby blessing realizing this is the last time. My kids are so close in age, they will go through things so close together, my "firsts" and "lasts" experiences with the kids will happen in close succession, just like the blessings, and it will be done.
I graduated high school 13 years ago. It seems like less time than that. Soon livy and noah will be graduating, and ill be sitting here again, perhaps watching noah speak for his mission, and wondering how I came to be the mother of two adults, and I now know without a doubt, I'll still be just me inside, the same dorky, silly me, and the part of my life that occupied so much thought and anticipation as a young girl, will be over and on to the next. I hope i remember everyday, that THIS is the charmed life. Im living my childhood dream and even without hardly a penny to our names, its more in a million ways than I ever hoped for. I just wanted to be a mommy, a wife, very small dreams to many in the world today. Now, I suddenly want nothing more than what i have, and to be a better and better wife, and a better and better mother, child, and follower of the savior, and to do everything humanley possible to ensure noah and livy find pure fullfilment in those same things.
The baby phase is soon to be over for me. I'll mourn its passing as noah too grows out of it. But i hope i can soak in every ounce of happiness each day has to offer. Then i will spend their teenage years dreaming of being a grandmommy!! Ahhh the charmed life.
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Sunday, March 13, 2011
spring is near!






Ahhhh spring is just around the corner and the entire reason for living out here is about to get fun again! I cant wait to hike and fish and play at the lakes and work on my backyard!! Now how i will accomplish this with two wee little ones is another story! But ill tell you what, ive been pregnant for 2 years and im NOT missing another hiking/swimming season! I cant wait to start jogging outside and get in shape for the summer! Ahhhhhhhhh feels SOOOOOOO good not to be pregnant!
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Friday, February 25, 2011
Noah






Well its been a bit and i thought perhaps i should update this little blog with our newest family member. Our little Noah was born Feb 2,at 8:40 a.m. at 6 lbs 11 oz. He was 3 weeks early but it sure felt like he was late.
My doctor told me I would be lucky to make it past christmas even though i wasnt due until Feb 24! Obviously this scared the heck out of us, so he began us on steroid injections which jordy gave me weekly at home. Christmas came and happily went with baby tucked safely still inside. When my doctor abruptly quit his practice I scrambled to find a new high risk doctor at the end of my pregnancy. We found a great one at the U of U and she disagreed with alot of my previous diagnoses. She felt she could get me to 36 weeks.
I drove out to the hospital for my 36 week check and had been having contractions all morning. She checked and i was dialated to a 2 and 70% effaced. The contractions were steady but no closer ever than 10 min apart so they said to go home. We were leary of going home because i live over an hour from the hospital so i decided to head to work in park city and hang out with my dad and jordan. I had livy with me and started up parleys canyon and a huge snow storm started. Cars started sliding off the road and i realized the van wouldnt make it. I slowed down too much and on a big hill, and trying to speed up made me slide off the road. Everyone around me was pulling off to wait it out too, so i called my dad and jordan to tell them id wait it out a little, when the contractions got harder and more frequent. Soon they were 4 min apart and pretty strong. Since there was no way they could get to me i had no choice but to call an ambulance! Oh joy!
As i talked with the 911 lady and realized it would be difficult for the ambulence to get to me and what a predicament i was in a started panicking, i really thought i was going to need to spread blankets in the back of the van and get back there. They thankfully got to me quickly, and loaded up livy and I. Poor livy was soooo traumatized. They kept her in her car seat as they transfered her and she just could not stop screaming the whole way. She just couldnt handle seeing me strapped up it was too much for her little 1 year old understanding.
The ambulence slid off the road and i heard them communicating to the U of U telling the the monitor said the contractions were 2 min apart, and to check me. So they stripped me and i was expecting a regular pelvic, instead the guy spreads my legs and backs up to look from afar, then says into the walkie, "nope theres no head" i laughed out loud and told him next time he could just ASK me and id surely let him know if there was a head! Well, with a LOT of drama from livy we got out onto the road and to the hospital. Jordan was finally able to meet me there which was wonderful to say the least. Livy wouldnt let any nurse hold her and holding her during those contractions realllly sucked. Not to mention she kept trying to pull out my i.v. and oxygen. So now after being checked i was still only dialted to a 3!!! After a couple hours they checked me again and no progress! After all that haha! Then after a couple more hours the contractions RANDOMLY slowed down! Back down to one every 10 minutes!! The worst of it was i wasnt progressing past a 3, so they discharged me with pain meds for the contractions!! Haha and you thought this was the birth!
I was not a happy momma to say the least. The contractions continued, hard and consistent every 10 minutes the rest of the day! The pain meds did nothing totally dont waste your time with them! At least not for contractions. The next day they got closer together, but not much. The next day back to 10 minutes apart, and they stayed that way for the rest of the week!! I was seriosuly the most cranky woman to be around all week i just couldnt believe you could get stuck in early labor like that!
So I stomped into my 37 week appointment without livy this time:) and she said i was now a 4 and 80% eff. She had mercy on me and said that since i was now full term they could strip my membranes and that having been in active labor for a week she thought it was best. I drove up to work and decided to groom some dogs to get my mind off things, when the contractions started in strong every 3 minutes. We grabbed our bags left livy with dad and back we went. She checked me and now i was a 5, so the admitted me for delivery yay!!!
Well just because god felt like i needed to learn some patience, the contractions slowed down again after 4 hours. The doctor had me walking up steps in the hospital for a couple hours to progress labor and NOTHING. My family showed up with balloons to find me full dressed and needless to say sobbing, with painpills in hand and discharged once again. The hospital offered to let me stay overnight in the antipartem unit, but i was so discouraged i stubbornly told jordan i wanted to go home. We went home and went to sleep. I awoke at 4 a.m. to the worst contractions yet, and remembering now from hard labor with livy i knew i might be in trouble. They were 2 min apart and AWEFUL. We rushed to the hospital but when we got to park city the contractions were 40 seconds apart and i wanted to push, i knew we wouldnt make it to the U.
Jordy dropped me off at emergency and went with livy to park. I was able to walk into the lobby but collapsed in the waiting room. They gurnied me up to labor and delivery and checked me and the nurse who checked me said, "oh you are still a 5 so lets get the epideral in" i love her for that mistake! They gave me a narcotic in my i.v. so i could sit up long enough for the epi, and got it in within 30 minutes, the doctor came in to check me and said nope you are 9 almost a 10 and 100%eff. Definately would have delivered on the side of the road! So within an hour little noah came in to the world! The epi didnt kick in in time but the anesthesiologist had put some narcotic into my spinal fluid to help with the pain and that was awesome! Definately the worst pain of my life but a quick and very intimate delivery with just a doc and nurse and jordan and me. It was nice having our moms there with livy, and we wanted that again but my mom had to be in the waiting room with livy and shelly couldnt get down in time. It was nice just jordy and me welcoming noah though, a beautiful happy end to the WORST week of my life haha!:) so thats our forever long birthstory for noah!
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
Why Oh Why?
Friday, January 7, 2011
The Liv of my Life

Could this little monkey make a anyone's day better?...ill bet on it! Jordan and I can be in a huge fight and she catches our eye and we immediately melt and sart in on the baby talk. She is the cure all. I could never...Ever have guess how i might feel about this little being. And on top of that i see these ADORABLE little ones with their mommies and i secretely think...you couldnt possibly feel the sameas i feel about mine!! Haha its so not true. But since my heart cant literally grasp how it can hold her in it without explosion...i cant further grasp all these thousand of cute mommies walking around with ticking time bombs in their hearts?? Just ready for the next cute look or word and i know it willl be the final straw, it will explode . And ill be left a shell, who once had a livy.Published with Blogger-droid v1.6.5