A Charmed Life

We all know life goes by fast. It seems like childhood goes by especially fast and suddenly we are graduating and moving onward. It felt to me like i spent the better part of that childhood and teenage life looking forward to being a mother. I watch my 10 year old niece glow and drool over babies, and at the same time remember massaging my sisters belly when she was 8 months pregnant with her. I thought i would feel....different, I guess. More mature inside maybe? More "adult" the way I saw the young mothers and "adults" when I was 12. But I'm just me! Im just the same me inside, sitting at my sons baby blessing realizing this is the last time. My kids are so close in age, they will go through things so close together, my "firsts" and "lasts" experiences with the kids will happen in close succession, just like the blessings, and it will be done. I graduated high school 13 years ago. It seems like less time than that. Soon livy and noah will be graduating, and ill be sitting here again, perhaps watching noah speak for his mission, and wondering how I came to be the mother of two adults, and I now know without a doubt, I'll still be just me inside, the same dorky, silly me, and the part of my life that occupied so much thought and anticipation as a young girl, will be over and on to the next. I hope i remember everyday, that THIS is the charmed life. Im living my childhood dream and even without hardly a penny to our names, its more in a million ways than I ever hoped for. I just wanted to be a mommy, a wife, very small dreams to many in the world today. Now, I suddenly want nothing more than what i have, and to be a better and better wife, and a better and better mother, child, and follower of the savior, and to do everything humanley possible to ensure noah and livy find pure fullfilment in those same things. The baby phase is soon to be over for me. I'll mourn its passing as noah too grows out of it. But i hope i can soak in every ounce of happiness each day has to offer. Then i will spend their teenage years dreaming of being a grandmommy!! Ahhh the charmed life.

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