Saturday, September 19, 2009

What can man do?

The economy seems to affect us all differently at different times. I know it sure has affected my family, and Jordy and I and our small business. I'm sitting at work today, and its a bit slow, which can be a bit scary. Jordy is worky a couple different jobs trying to keep us a float as we try to climb out of the mess our illness made of our lives financially, and as I try to get the business back on it's feet. We have a baby on the way, no health insurance yet, and all in all I should be feeling pretty down. My heart aches for Jordy's stresses and the stresses of my sweet family as they too try to cope with the harsh economy. Yet somehow today I can only feel overwhelming gratitude and peace. A gift that feels so undeserved as I have continued to allow stress to get the better of my moods, even while I can see the almighty reaching into our lives on a daily basis and keeping us buoyant. I've felt myself question why we always seem to be only "barely" buoyant. What a terrible attitude when the only reason we've been even that is the tender mercy of Father in Heaven.

I watch all the hot air balloons that always litter the skies up here in the mornings, and feel so optimistic and grateful. I have a family I love, that loves me. A family that has been through so much together, business's and financial things that so easily tear apart even the closest of families. Yet we remain closer than ever. We hold to each other, play games with each other, laugh with each other, and cry with each other. Everyone comes running at full speed when even the smallest thing appears to threaten the well being or happiness of one of our own. "For what can man do unto us?" we have the lord on our side. We have each other on our side, and through it all we have each other to laugh with, and play with. I adore my families(jordys and mine). I adore my friends. I ADORE my husband. I love the lord with all my heart, and am so overwhelmed, on such an insignificant saturday morning, that the almighty God of Abraham, has seen fit to bless my little families with love and support for each other, and pure enjoyment of each others' company..



Thank you for you blogs, and updates on your lives. I draw comfort and hope from your everyday thoughts and perspectives. I am so glad our new little one will be surrounded by such golden and beautiful people. I am so lucky.

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Candles and Bushels

It's cloudy, slightly cool, and very breezy, my favorite kind of day! Ben Stein was recently quoted talking having different beliefs, yet accepting others' and respecting their faiths without judgment and intolerance. He spoke about the different legal battles that have been publicized, when those with a different belief system have presented such intolerance that God has been rejected from our schools, our government, and our communities, all in the supposed name of, that’s right, tolerance.

I watch the wind blowing through the trees and can't help but be reminded of the small flicker of a candles flame, as it is extinguished by the seemingly gentle wind. There is so much light in this world; sacred light, that begins to feel so rejected we tuck it away under various bushels, and press it firmly into the safer, secret spaces in our hearts. I see the reason, and I can feel the attitude echo in my own heart everyday. Where are all the Candlesticks?
In times of such cloud and uncertainty, should we not embrace each other? No assistance needs to be given to the hardships, which already so efficiently depress our spirits and hopes. We all have different light. No matter our particular belief system, we have brightness unique to our own soul, and we can uplift and enlighten and encourage each other, in even the simplest ways. We can hear, and be heard. We can speak what is in our hearts and lighten another's burden. We can lighten our own burdens and celebrate our differences.

One day, in the first days of running my new salon, a customer came in feeling faint and asked for some water. It was a slow day, and I sat next to her on the couch for the next 3 hours of what began a friendship for which I am so grateful everyday. We laugh so hard we cry whenever we see each other. We adore each other’s husbands and Jordy and I can't possibly get enough of her 2 absolutely beautiful boys. I am so intrigued by her everyday. She has a heart I've never encountered, and her boys have inherited her sincerity and selflessness at an unbelievably young age. She has devoted her life and her profession to lightening the burdens of others. Janna and I come from two very different backgrounds, religions, and cultures, yet we have never felt any threat, awkwardness or hesitation in sharing our deepest ambitions, desires, ideas, values and beliefs with each other, and we have always found the other an intent, intrigued listener. We find new respect for each other each time we interact. I have never felt any judgment or skepticism in the slightest from her when I've expressed my beliefs or ideas and I try to follow her example and will continue to try to be more and more like her.
I told Janna the other day of my thought, to perhaps follow Ben Stein a little, and use my personal blog to start publishing some of my everyday thoughts, ranging from a simple message of love, to a profound thought I might normally tuck away in a secret place to be read by some future generation or never to even be expressed. As we spoke of what fun it could be, especially if we could persuade others to follow with their own wonderful thoughts of hope and ideas about the world, and what walls it could help tear down, even if just for one person or ourselves, we came up with the idea for this blog.

We hope you find comfort here, laughter, inspiration, acceptance, and hope, and we hope most of all you could find it in someone you perhaps thought before you had nothing in common with. We hope we can all find the courage, here or somewhere else, to put away our bushels, and bring our light out from our secret places, that perhaps our community, if even just our small network of people, may find their lives, burdens, and daily countenances, just a little bit lighter.

Please visit us and help spread any good report or praiseworthy messages! www.candlesandbushels.blogspot.com

love stephy

Saturday, August 29, 2009

Thats IT!!


okay so I stopped blogging because it seemed if you don't have sweet cute little kiddies to post about then it will bore people. But as I've read other blogs, I realize how nice it is to get an inside on even just some daily thoughts of the people you care about and don't get to see very often! So I decided THATS IT, I'm gonna blog! It may bore most people but its a great way to fill in your loved ones on your day to day life. Living out in the sticks we tend to not wander to the wasatch front very often, so perhaps I need to keep more up to date here!

Jordy and I have not been up to much besides work and hikin around the back country. We love love to find new lakes to hike out to up in the uintas, and lately we've been taking gold pans and gold panning small streams just for fun! It really is a fun quest!





Finding out we are pregnant is usually no big news for us because my body has been a professional baby killer. It fights it off like a bad germ! Infact, it's better at fighting babies than actual germs! But when we heard the heart beat the first time we knew this one was a fighter and wouldn't be takin my bodies guff! So now we are 14 weeks and truckin along smoothly;all be it incredibly nauseously. The nausia has sure helped me not to gain any weight so far though. I know that will change but I am sure counting my blessings for now. My doctor says I can keep my overall weight gain as low as 15 pounds for the whole pregnancy safely, considering I started out overweight.

I decided with how much I love reading and writing and being in nature, that it was time to bring it home with me. I began embarking on turning part of our back pasture into an amazing zen garden! I have so many ideas and the more I get into it I realize it will take years.

But I have at least begun. I dug a fire pit, and I have been collecting fieldstone from some of our hikes. I don't think I will get to start the stacked stone wall this year with the baby coming. I am so excited about this zen garden I have no idea why. Tilling the area for the zen garden itself was no walk in the park, lets just say it should perhaps not be done by a woman of my, shall we say fair bossumed stature!

Friday, January 9, 2009

what dorks

but a good story

married and still in our work clothes

holy crap we are crazy. We just thought we'd put some pics on from our crazy impulsive wedding in vegas considering no one was there! We'll post the temple pics next!

second thoughts?

done deal

and married!
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